My Childhood Lies in Ruins

My childhood lies in ruins

It is the swing that hangs by one chain

And the jungle gym set in pieces on the ground

I watch the weeds grow

They grow around my memories quickly

Covering up the past so easily as time moves on

The playground is overgrown

With grass and dandelions that grow in patches

They were with the younger me before she passed

I want go back to then

When life was simple and fun didn't end

But my childhood is still slipping from my grasp

Recess is over

It been over for years but not forgotten

Now it's gone completely, a memory of happier times

I cry for my loss of time

But I still watch the clock ticking away the days

As my last moments are wasted on wishing for more

I Miss You

It's been two years since I've seen your face

I picture you now but you disappear

Time has darkened your image in my mind

Making what was once vivid, unclear

I wish with all my soul to see you now

But when I try I fail and fall again

Then the despair grips me and I give in

I fall willingly and relive the pain

I left you at sixteen and moved forward

I'm growing up and you are frozen

Stuck in time and in my mind, you live

Forever a freshmen; a could've been



I don't want your memory to fade from me

But the clouds of time are rolling in

And when the rain comes it washes you away

So I must leave you buried within

I watch the time with the eyes of a woman

Years will go by and years have gone

I'm struggle to hold on as the seasons change

Others have left you; they must move on

How can I blame them for leaving so fast?

We are still children after all

And the grief sweeps in as we think of you

So much pain it hurts to recall



Sometimes I want to forget how you died

And just simply think of you

But for some reason, it pains me more

If I try but I can't see you

There are some nights when I've dreamt of you

You hold me while I sit and cry

A small favor given by your midnight visits

But in the morning, another lie

These years have brought on clarity anew

Only love will bring us through

And when the next two years pass me by

Please know, Jared, I miss you